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i_paint_the_sky) wrote2007-08-07 04:27 pm
i_paint_the_sky) wrote2007-08-07 04:27 pm
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Back home early, yay!
So today was, amusingly enough, the day when I was productive and everyone else feels like they weren't. This whole project is just so dumb sometimes.
I am feeling really good about today though. I made a realization that I really need to start voicing my opinion more and to stop being afraid of being disagreed with. I've been feeling really unproductive/uninvolved because I haven't been speaking up as much as everyone else and have been telling myself it's because I don't really have any concrete ideas. And yes, sometimes I don't, but a lot of it really is just this fear of people not liking what I have to say. I get really nervous about that, enough that I just don't say anything at all.
It's not just this project either, it's pretty much...life for me. And I need to stop it because I know that I'm not happy about it and that having a little more confidence would be good for me.
Anyway, there's my philosophical moment of the day.
So today was, amusingly enough, the day when I was productive and everyone else feels like they weren't. This whole project is just so dumb sometimes.
I am feeling really good about today though. I made a realization that I really need to start voicing my opinion more and to stop being afraid of being disagreed with. I've been feeling really unproductive/uninvolved because I haven't been speaking up as much as everyone else and have been telling myself it's because I don't really have any concrete ideas. And yes, sometimes I don't, but a lot of it really is just this fear of people not liking what I have to say. I get really nervous about that, enough that I just don't say anything at all.
It's not just this project either, it's pretty much...life for me. And I need to stop it because I know that I'm not happy about it and that having a little more confidence would be good for me.
Anyway, there's my philosophical moment of the day.