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So, grandparents are visiting with people, Mom is planting flowers at my grandma's (the other grandma) and my dad is working outside...this leaves me holed up in my room with my soaps. Just had the great fun of doing a tarot reading for myself, good news for my life as far as school and friends goes, not so clear in other areas.

I'm going to be babysitting my cousins most of the day tomorrow, because the support staff at the area schools are going on strike and thus the schools will be closed. So hopefully I can get $200 for AN and only need to borrow $100 or so from Mom and Dad. I really hope I get a regular job soon. Stupid jobs.

Rather sore from working out and helping with shovelling dirt in the front yard. Hopefully I'll be able to do a bit more work outside before the day is out though...I feel like being useful but I don't really feel like writing at the moment. *sigh*

I think I'm going to go collapse on my bed now.






Vicki

I am also a Meme Sheep...and love getting comments far too much

1. Comment with any ship [or character] from a fandom that you know I like, or at least have some knowledge about.

2. I will ramble for about 100 words (I may go over a bit) about the aforementioned ship. This may be incoherent gushing or exclamations of disgust, depending on what it is.

3. Put this on your LJ, if you are so inclined.

I HATE SUMMER

God, I hate this summer so much at times. I just want it to be over with now. I don't seem to have anything to look forward to until it's done. Even Anime North, which I should be excited about, can't seem to get me that interested. Mom asked me if I still wanted to go the other day...and I had to think about it. If I hadn't already paid registration, I actually might not have bothered. It's not that I won't have fun, I'm sure I will...but I really, REALLY wanted to see Katrebs and Kate and Margaret and I'm not going to see any of them and that sucks SO much.

After AN, the next thing to look forward to slightly is Shannon's baby being born. That will be exciting. But I don't know, I don't feel as close to her anymore. She used to be the person I considered my best friend, but I can't say that anymore.

As for everyone else here, I've fallen out of touch with them so much that I'm so used to not talking to them that even though I'm here, I'm still not talking to them. And they aren't talking to me. The only person who this wasn't true of was Meredith, but we haven't talked since that fight in January and I'm not sure if she will talk to me again...I left a comment on her LJ but she never replied.

I just don't see the point of me being here. I don't have a job. I don't do anything. I just sit at home all day and am miserable. The only thing that was getting me through this all was writing and I don't even feel like doing that.

I'm getting really desperate for attention too...but I don't want to have to ask for it. Of course, now that I have said this, I can't get it from anyone on my FL.

I don't even seem to be getting this from my parents at times...they are just too used to me wanting to do my own thing I guess.

I just don't know how to be happy anymore, at least not for an extended period of time.